The Desert, My workplace

When you tell your superior that you have too much work and you cant finish them they might say, that's why you are paid at a monthly basis. If your work can finish, i might as well contract the work out to you.

To a certain extend, well its true... but i cant accept it

Many people in the same organization are given less work but they still enjoy the same pay. I always wondered why the hell i am doing more?

Opportunities? Career Development? Long term benefits? These are all currently untagible benefits and worse, its uncountable.

Honestly i dont even know what i am talking about now because i am lost. It feels like i am in a Desert with only a bottle of water. I do not know when will i be out of the desert or when i will find more water. I may die trying or maybe i will reach my goal.

the Desert is like my work, I do not know how far i should be walking. The water is like my motivation , i dont know when i will run out. My goal is like my Long term benefits, i dont know i will get it or i will die trying. Honestly if i knew i will die trying, i wont even try in the first place

So is long term benefits and oppurtunities your motivation?

A personal Story: My daughter

This is a story dedicated to my lovely daughter. For me, her beauty is no 2 among all the girls i've ever met. Who is no1? well you could have guessed it...


Sometime she really made me very angry but sometimes she is very sweet. Just take today for example, she woke up earlier than me and my wife and she climb up to our bed to kiss the both of us. After that, she climb back to her own bed.

Well this is the good side, the negative side is difficult to explain... Example could explain better... here is one: she likes to throw things although i had beaten her hands many time when she does it. Today, she threw a glass on the floor... what happen after that? of course she left behind a broken glass on the floor for her daddy to clean the mess

Now there are times where i would like to scold her but she knows how to tackle my heart. Let me tell you one example: yesterday, she played with my cigarettes. She torn several sticks of it and threw it on the floor. when i found out, she already emptied the whole new pack. I started scolding her for what she had done and she just smiled back sweetly. When i was cleaning the mess, i was still scolding and she came next to me patting me on my head softly and made me smile.What happen next? well of course i stopped scolding and she gave me some kisses and i gave her some too... my anger? down to zero

Its always amazing to discover what children can do. Every parents will easily surrender to these little negotiators. Step one: try to confront the person. if it fails, proceed to step 2: Give innocent look with watery eyes. if all else fails: Cry! If still fails: continue crying... Definately someone will come to rescue

Now she grown up. She understood more things and able to follow more commands. I am proud of her. Wherever she goes, she is always in the center of attention. Everyone pampered her. i am really afraid that she will grow up being a spoiled brat. Now its all up to me and my wife to make her to a well mannered girl.

The path is very long and bumpy but have my fingers crossed and hope she will grow up well. I am sure this blog is a very boring one but i dont care. Who knows one day she might be reading this. If really she in reading this one day, all i wanna say to her is that regardless of what she does, bad or good, she will always be my lovely daughter. You will always be forgiven as long as you say the magic word..."SORRY"

Long Time No blog

Now had come to the time where many things need to be planned out. Well it happens to me to. It is time like this where you need to predict what will happen in the next year.

Being “kind of” senior in my department I am also involved in some projects… Guess what, the project formats changed! What I had done since the beginning had gone down the drain… I will be required to redo my proposal!!!

Sad sad story… Anyway for the sake of money… no choice…

Never fight with money!!

Now you guys know I have not be blogging for some time

Another Person that says i should be a trainer

Well just last Friday i attended a training on "Strengthening People Management Skills at the Workplace". It was a great training where i honestly thinks that i learned a lot. Anyway, i met this Professor named Dr Edwin Varo who is an excellent trainer.

Again i was reminded that i could be a good trainer if i want to be one. Like most trainer, he knew i am an extrovert the moment he saw me. You see he is a psychologist on Organization Behavior so of course he can read people's attitude.

I spent some time talking to him when we are free and he told me that i should be a trainer. He says that i am a person that could never live alone. I must have people around me and have the skills to influence people. I also have the skill to keep others energetic.

Dr Edwin said my company needs more people like me who will be able to bring up the energy of others in the workplace. Well when i heard it, i was very proud of course.lol

Anyway he also said that i have some weakness. I wants acknowlegment in everything i do. To satisfy me, just praise me and things will be better... hahahah i am such an LOA (lacking on Attention).

At the end of the class, Dr Varo tld me that if i want to, he is willing to give me some oppurtunity to conduct some training. I asked him "will people listen to me? Since i am so young". He said "Yes, because i an influence people's mind". He told me to keep in touch with him

Well who know one day i might really become a good trainer. For a start, now i should get as much experience as possible so that when i speak in the future, i have more wise advise for people. My ex-boss Adrian did invite me to join his training team. Well i want him to know that "YES, i will join his team for some extra bucks to spend with my family"

Lets hope i will do a good job and will not ruin his reputation as a trainer. I sure hope what Dr Edwin told me is true. I really hope i can be a great trainer in the future. Now let's do it part time for a start... hehehe

Encounter with Spirits

I remembered about 3 years ago, my company organized an outing to Port Dickson. It was compulsory so most of us went. Due to budget constraints, we actually rented a very deserted hotel where i think hardly anyone would stay there

Anyway, the moment i saw the hotel i already feel eerie. You see the painting of the hotel looks as if it had not been maintained at least for more that 8 years. Besides that, the hotels have many lousy ornaments which dont seem right

Anyway we are just there to put a night and conduct some team building. So after the day's activities, we all returned to our rooms and i sent my wife back to her room. After a good night kiss we parted and i went back to my room

After about 30 minutes, my wife sms me saying " i am in Joanne's room. Just now we encountered something". We continued to sms and i told her i would like to see her. So i walked to the room(Joanne's room) to meet her but she said she is too afraid to open the door so i walk back.

Anyway when i got back to my room, my roommate was already sleeping soundly. He snored as if he is going to tear off the building. Anyway i laid on my bed and wanted to sleep. Soon, i felt my bed is vibrating. You know the kind like someone is pushing your bed many times... Its like a vibration of your mobile phone

I plucked up my courage to open my eyes... Then... i saw... nothing is there... After i closed my eyes again, the vibration began again... this time its harder and more violent. I opened my eyes again and still there is nothing

I stared to get a little pissed off and told them in Mandarin "I am going to be here only for a night. After this i will return home and you may have the room for yourself again. Please dont disturb me". After that, the vibration stops.

Just before i doze off, i felt the vibration started again. Since i am dead tired after the day's activities, i dont care and just slept.

The next morning, i asked my wife about her encounter. This is her story.

She and her roommate was just about to go to bed. Before that, my wife told her roommate that she is very tired and wanted to sleep. So just before they doze off, my wife heard someone humming some songs but she thought it was her roommate. Then her roommate scolded "I thought you are tired? Why are you humming song now?".

Immediately my wife answered "It wasn't me!". Just then, her roommate sat up took her pillow and dashed off the room. My wife saw her dashing and dashed off too. They went to Joanne's room and slept there that night.

Well that is the end of story of the haunted hotel. The next day, i was assigned by my wife to packe her bags for her as she is too afraid to go alone. She showed me where the music came from and i asked the person sleeping next door. She said she heard it too and she thought it was them and they dont care.As we are on the bus, i heard there are many others who encounter with such things